God the greatest Artist

Copy right Kelly A. Gammon

A good relationship takes communication, trust, compromise and most of all laughter. True love is being there for someone when you are exhausted, burnt out and fed up but still making an effort to work on yourself and the relationship. Looking inward to see what you can fix about yourself rather then what you can fix about your partner for the wellness of both. I think truly loving someone is allowing them to be free and learn on their own time, of course setting healthy boundaries, but never the less always allowing them to express who they are as an individual. Putting God first in our lives also will give you a sense of peace knowing you do not have to carry the load on your own. Know that you can not control everything and you can not control another person. God is the teacher and what he has planned to teach you may not be what he has in mind to teach your partner. Be forgiving, and know nobody is perfect. Love like there is no tomorrow,  And most of all always practice patience!

Darkened by his weary soul

growing cold

emotions far beyond his touch

for my love for anything could never be much

I am over powered by his strength

the depths of this void echo inside

there is a need I try to hide

live is that of a memory

far behind

the shallow ones I meet know no peace

they all worship to conceit

the pain hurts me sometimes more then I show

I have a feeling I need to let him go

will I grow from all of this?

on the other side of his kiss

this is a path I have traveled before

there are no exits before the door

I am lost in a maze

hidden by the thickened haze

I am dust that has been blown away

will he remember my face if I leave today?

Memer

In a world full of wrong you have shown me right

and your love prevailed

The path I walk is blessed by your loving light

just hearing your voice I know it will be alright

your spirit has lifted me up when I fall

and your sewing hands mended my wounds as well

but it is your love that has made me feel

you have listened when I needed to be heard

never closing a door

your heart always open and willing for more

it is your love that has helped me to speak

a real angel before my eyes

 a woman of truth and compromise

feelings of defeat can easily pass when held in your arms and touched by your time

it is your love that has helped me see

for yesterday is not just a memory

it is a lesson you taught me

and allowed me to be

a woman of strength and integrity

Peper

You are a string man born into this world with a guiding hand

your gentle touch I love so much

but it’s really the love behind it

I see you aura that shines so bright filling my soul with all your light

you’ve touched my heart as I have taken flight

sacrificed your sorrow to make whats right

I now see the world as it is before turning out the light

It was your inspiration that helped me threw difficult nights

It’s because of you my tomorrows are near

giving me hope and knowing you care

so if you are ever in doubt

do not fear you are the reason I am here

alive and well to share and tell all the joy you bring me

in my eyes a reflection of yours

to see the truth behind life’s lores

proud to say I love you in every meaningful way 

There are those

There are those who love you for what you got

they will never listen to your thoughts, you thought they thought

now knowing they are those who never cared

There are those who stood by you threw thick and thin

you can almost feel them deep within

your restless soul feeds upon their lives

they are those who have always tried

There are those who share your pain

they have heard your heart and felt it gain

your open sorrow kneels at their feet

they allow you to nibble till you feel complete

they are those who allow you to grow

they are those who help you define those

15

I guess those memories are gone

good and bad it’s time to move on

evil stand in front of me though he has no power over me

you think you’ve won this battle I fought?

In and out of her life

I won’t let her cry

You have seen her once, but I have seen the pain in her time

so innocent

so sweet

well your actions will be seen by an invisible eye

maybe to young to know the truth but karma comes in time

yes I’m hurt

stronger to admit the truth then to feel proud and lie

Don’t stand around and ask me why!

for someone to carve my future in stone then walk away

they should have to pay

I’m angry for being naive

where were my friends to save me?

yes, but that is ok the bruises have all faded away

It is the emotions that seem to stay

I have tried to invent new ones for the old to go away

I’m a survivor don’t tell me I’m in your way

I am her voice, the one you once took away

so listen when I speak!

when you hurt me and made me cry

you hurt the mother that wipes the tears from her eyes

Will for a way

Listen to me if you can hear my voice

I speak in sorrow but not by choice

I want to live free

So subtract these burdens that have empowered me

If only there was a will

If only there was a way

If only I had the courage to say

Help me threw tomorrow

show me a brighter day

knock down these walls I’ve built to keep you all away

I need to breath again

and allow life to fulfill my dreams

a step further then where I stand

guide me just don’t hold my hand

If only there was a will

if only there was a way

if only it was easier with every passing day

There once was a time when you heard my laughter

but open up the book and read a page

you’ll feel the pain and seek my rage

If only there was a will 

if only there was a way

If only I could make it all go away

 

The silent drive

One of my boyfriend’s complaints about me and my kids is that we are to quiet in the car, he can’t take the lifelessness. He claims even when him and I are in the car driving we don’t say a word. It made me really reflect on why am I /we so quiet when we get in the car besides duh safety reasons. And then it came to me of course not when I should have had a quick come back. When I was young and all threw my teens my Peper would be there in his big dark blue Lincoln to pick me up any where at any time; however when we drove we never said a word, He was a very quiet man, he never said much of anything but when he did it mattered. Growing up I never really though much of it. You know war really did a number on those men. He is just starting to talk about those WW2 days now at 93. So when I think about how I am quiet and especially quiet in the car and tend to use that car time as a time to reflect I am proud

My BEST FRIEND!

                    

I have been best friends with this girl since we were both 13 and 14 years of age. She is like a sister to me. I don’t think anyone knows me better then she does. Its been a 25 year long friendship and many more to come. She has inspired me and has never failed to tell me like it is. I love that about her, she is such a realist like myself and we both are very leery about people. I used to be the social one when we were young but as we have grown older we have switched roles. However, she understands me and never takes offense if I call off plans at the last minute. She, besides my Memer; is the only person I could literally talk on the phone for hours with. She is my dark room; getting lost in time upon conversations anything from men to dream interpretations. She has got to be the only person on earth that will let me give her a detailed account with out interruption and be able to visualize it  just as it was and vice versa. We have grown into women together, married men and raised our families together and even went threw divorces together then started over together. Seeing each other at our lowest points in life and encouraging one another threw it all. She is the one that picks me up when I cannot find the strength to get up and keep on fighting this spiritual war. She makes me see who I really am and threw her eyes I know I am the woman I see her to be.